Assalamualaikum semua.


Its been a while since my last post. Ever since the pandemic begun, I as a trauma nurse has been busy dealing with the situation we are all facing. Whats more, I am a frontliner. Though working at a private sector isnt much of a pressure compared to government, we still face patient that are high risk of COVID19. Other then that, lies about their whereabouts and travel history is just way too common in my hospital.

Malaysia is said to be one of the top countries that has an increasing number of discharged patient but yet, the increasing number of active case is still on going and scary.

Stay safe people and stay home🌹

I kindda like want to have a little slot about me.. So I open a post with a title "know me better" .

I'm a girl like daa.. LOL. But I myslef like to have boys around. Doesnt mean I'm a playgirl but guys are much better then having a girl friend. I'm the type who really cant stand all the "gedik-ness" in girl. I can't stand girls being picky, fussy, intolerant and most probably gossiping.
But I do have one of those criteria, thats why no girl. I'm a eater. I dont eat anything but I do love to try weird food or food that has been spoken by many. I do things clumsily but at time I can be pessionate and perfect.

World and life for me has lots of ups and down and I dont have any way to calm myself. I always do something crazy to seek attention or just do crazy things and blarghhh.. I'm in trouble. I can even hurt myself in a way that "damn! That hurts.. I should stop" . Yeaa.. Crazy me.

Relationship. Hurm... I can say that I'm loyal. Once I'm with him, no matter how much we fight.. I never wish for a break up and yea.. I love communication and trust in my relationship. It does work you know... Girls do make assumptions so yea.. Communication is compulsory indeed.
The break up will only happen when I finds out he's married or got engaged or officially in a relationship with other girl. No way I'll be sharing.

Family.. Man. This is easy. Family is above all everybody. ABOVE ALL.
They are number one to me. No other words to describe.

Anything to ask? Can drop below comments or DM me.

After a long time, I havent experience any horror scene when i sleep and this time it happens again. It was last night when I was a bout to go to sleep.

As I close my eyes, something just sat on me and rub against my neck to the back. It was disturbing that I had to get up and grab my phone. I switch on any surahs and hoping I would fell asleep. Well, usually it does work but not this time.

Those "unknowns" kept on disturbing me as if they dont want me to ever fall asleep. But i had to.. I listen to the surah and focus on it. Eventually i fell asleep. That was like almost 2 hours to get myself to sleep and get rid of those things.

 These happen lots of times when I was in my high school and during college time but didnt expect them to happen again this time. The "unknowns" are always a mystery.

Day 1- I had my very first shake with oat. Supposely i should add in an inch of banana but i've got no banana at home. So yea.. shake and oat together2.

My shake have this cookies and cream flavour. Its soooo delicious.
Plus i should be jogging this morning but i slept late last night. So I think i need a nap better than having a jog. Hahaha..

Assalam 'alaik. Its been a while since i updated my blog. I'm a working women so I kinnda have a busy life until today, I started to think of starting blogging again since i wanted to tell the world how i change myself from today onwards.

Since I wad a kid, my weight has always been a problem. I weight about 40 to 50kg when i was in standard 2 or 3. I moved to Jeddah and lived there for about 8 years and thats when my weight started to go down bit by bit.. i weight about 55kg when i was 20years old and begin my univeristy life in Malaysia.

My weight started to increase and I weight about 65kg when i was 24 years old. And now that i'm 26 years old, my weight is about 72.7kg! That is massive.

I dont feel good with my own self. I dont always get healthy. I normally cough every month and get sick at least once a month.

Thats when I started to think I need to change. So I found this club.. coaching club that could help me loose weight in a sense that i need to start with a healthy meal plan and a bit of exercise. I wasnt so sure about the club in the beginning since they usually promote product more than having to advice a healthy life style.

But this is different. They are really strict with me. I need to report all kind of food i consume everyday. And i have to follow the meal plan given. They even said, "if your weight dont reduce or it stays the same within 2 -3 weeks. That mean you lied to me. You must have eaten something you're not suppose to. So dont lie. The weighing machine dont lie!". And i was like 'gulp!'. 😂😂

So yeah.. i will be starting my proper diet tomorrow. And will be recording everything here.

Height: 153
Weight: 72.7kg
Age: 26

"Nothing is impossible until you prove that it is possible"

Today I was a assign as Triage nurse. Whats that??!!
Triage nurse is someone who stays in front of emergency as a front liner to first examined patient and classified them into their priority. less urgent and most urgent.. thts a triage, ^_^

so Today a patient came.. well, looking innocent and humble... its a girl.. in her 20s. she came in complaining of what her problem is in english and trust me, her english is so england.. maybe? I mean to say.. she speak english well and doesnt sound malay at all.. So normally, I'll talk to patient to ease their anxiety.. having a chit chat while examined the patient.

so here it goes,
me: where are you from sweetie?
her: I'm just from kelantan.. I'm Malay
me: lahhhh.. awat x habaq.. kemain ckp english.. x reti BM ka?

LOL.. and she laughed...
so here's the problem most of our people face.. tak kesah la ko belajar luar negara ke.. your parents came from that of high class people ke.... but the fact that you are Malay and dont speak malay made me sad seriously. I used to live oversea and studied there from 3rd grade until high school and Ive seen how malay people over there speak.... Macam lupa daratan... macam depa lupa bahasa ibunda.. semua pakat speaking... even the parents talk with them in english. Come on... you can teach your children in a way that they dont need to totally buang bahasa ibunda.. so sad!!

30.6.17

well, what its like to change? I'll say.. it will be the biggest challenges you have ever faced.
To change into someone faithful and to be a better person need lots of strength not only from the inner you but also from the people around you.

I've always come across to the thought of being someone better but its hard even harder when you're working. and the environment in which you're working. well... I think I need to try harder.. shouldnt I?

Alhamdulillah.. tanpa sedar.. I've been working as a nurse for 6 months already at KPJ ampang puteri and alhamdulillah again that i've loved my job till the end! the past few months... I've faced lots of life and love issues and almost got me into trouble... suicide maybe? yea.. suicide... I never want to tell the fault in my love issue coz it will end up me "buka aib org" so I better not.  But anyway... I hope for the better life in the upcomingsss.

I didnt expect much but I hope myself to be filled with Iman so I can be strong when facing any challenges and for myself to get closer to Allah. Ive always blame myself for failing my love issue because I realize I wasnt putting Allah as number one and I've always think of my ex all the time. I've left Allah all alone and eventually didnt know how Allah missed me and gave me such challenges to made me realize how I've forgotten Allah all these time. Thank you Allah.

30.6.17

13th November I got the chance to capture to most beautiful creation Allah~! Its called the SUPERMOON!

Supermoon atau lebih dikenali dengan nama saitifiknya iaitu Lunar Perigee adalah satu fenomena bulan penuh yang kelihatan lebih besar dan terang. Bulan akan dilihat 14 peratus lebih besar dan 30 peratus lebih cerah daripada hari biasa.

Here's my piece of ART!


and down here.. is me having fun with photoshop! LOL



SUBHANALLAH SBHANALLAH SUBHANALLAH!

Alhamdulillah, on 6th November, I've officially graduated from IIUM as a Bachelor of Nursing with Hons.
Nothing much to say other than a BIG THANKS to my family who have supported me all the way for 6 years of my study and NOT TO FORGET my umi who always keep awake and accompany me when I was studying late for my exam though she's far away from me.



And also a BIG THANKS to my friends who have helped me a lot in my study and some of them reallllllllllly taught me a lot and never give up explaining when I'm a 100 times fail to understand. Thank you.

Thanks you to Fathia Zainal Abidin who always help me during my 2nd and 3rd year especially. She gave me ride the time I have no cars to move a round, help me with my program paperwork and designing. BIG THANKS my love.

Thanks to Suhaiza Mohd Fadzil who was being a good kindda gurdian to me during my CFS, UNGS and 1st year of degree. She always reminded me things that I mislooked islamically. I will never forget you kindness.

Thanks to Alyana Ali who always tried to understand me whenever I dont understand a thing in class. She's a person who always keep happy and cheerful. She's always there when I needed a shoulder to cry on. She's always there when I needed an advice or head padded. She sees me cry.. she sees my happy.. She know me very well.

Thanks to Ariefah Hanim for always be my ears! Advice me and padded me. She reminded me hor beautiful life is if we put Allah first. She doesnt need much words... Her present is enough for making me happy and cheerful.

Thanks to my unmentioned friends as well. It's not that you are not special but you are too special that I cant put them in words. Love all of you! (^._.^)ﾉ

Its been a long time that I havent be able to write a post in my blog and this time, I came back with the new me. It took me so long to change and choose the right path for my own life. I've been walking away to find the solution and now here I come...THE NEW ME.

I know people might think that my decision is rude and harsh but they have no idea what I felt... my heart... myself... is hurting even more. Not a word can describe how I have been trying so hard to be strong and pretending everything was ok.. I've gone through a hard time. finding whats right for me.

All thanks to my family and friends who supported me and gave me advice and made me who I am now.
Frankly saying, I feel much better now. I have no guilt and no worries. I enjoy my life now and then. The happiness I feel now is different... Its pure! I dont have to pretend anymore, I can just be me and live a happy life.

I've learn that in life, the're many choices you can make... and all those choices are to make you happy. But the process of it is something that you have to choose wisely. I did choose the wrong process.. yes! i did! but there's always a second chance to be better and I choose to change.

There are few thing that always destroy your life... a boyfriend. yeap! That's what destroy me and my life. I've been blinded by love and I knew from the very beginning that my life will change by the time I accept love in my life. Either good or bad.. and it turns out to be bad. No offense. Some people have a better life with their partner... than thats them not me. my relationship previously taught me a lot and I'm so proud of having such experience because that's what make me now. HAPPY!

I didnt mean to look down upon people who are having lovey dovey life with their unmarried partner.. It's just me... myself... my thought and my feelings. Dont get me wrong tho.

SO now I'm focusing on being the successful me! and get married without having to couple first.

1 large bunch green, curly kale (though you could easily use Tuscan/Lacinato)

1/2 c fresh breadcrumbs
1 clove garlic
some olive oil

for dressing:
2 T olive oil
1 t balsamic syrup
1 T mustard
dash of curry powder
dash of paprika
pinch of salt black pepper
1 T miso paste
1 T mayo juice from 1/2 lemon

Wash and prep the kale by tearing off leaves from the thick stalk, then chop. In a small bowl, whisk all ingredients for the dressing until smooth. Toss/massage kale with the dressing using your hands. Toast the breadcrumbs on a pan over medium heat with a drizzle of olive oil and one clove of garlic, pressed. The salad can sit in the fridge, dressed, for a few hours, but you'll want to sprinkle and toss kale with breadcrumbs right before serving.

ALL THE BEST!

Di sebabkan few days x dapat tenet, So I'm stuck with no new post on my blog! anyway~!! I've got the most amazing news to tell ya all! Ive lost 4kg!! ok.. walaupun sikit but still la... I put an efforts kowt! Jogging setiap hari~! Fuhh~! "no pain, no gain". I'm gonna keep that in mind!

I was 67kg when I started my fitness program (walaupun diri ini nakal.. asyik cheat jee), aq masih berjaya turunkan 4kg withing 1 month 1 week. Lama jugak la nk dpt result sebab... sebab... aq ni byk cheating! nmpk mknn sedap skit dh meleh ayaq liuq~!

So introducing!!! I'm now 64kg! (SOLID!).. Awesome tak.. badan pun rasa selesa skit.. x rasa cepat penat.. but rasa la jugak after a long drive. so now.. I need 10kg more to lose and I'm DONE!

Pray for me gaiss~!!

"no pain, no gain".. ni lah slogan yg sgtlah popular bagi org2 yg nk fit nie... terutama skali sek2 yg suke pegi gym! Orang kata... Kalau nk fit nie... kene consistent and semangat yg kuat.. Kalau on off on off.. mmg smpi bila2 cenggituuuu je bdn die..
Kenapa aq nk start fitting?... Firstly, BMI aq dh melebihi had kowwttt... overweight dahhh... walaupun die overweight at the border je but still!!! aq nak ideall! A nak la badan cm angelina Jolie ke... Christina algulera (maen hentam je eja) ke... Kannn! Korang pun mesti bercita2 nk badan cantik kannn... as for me.. I dont really go for a slim type... but I'd go for a fit type.. Fit and ideal.. thats my aim!

Atkins diet aku masih on tapi kenkadang tu aq langgar jugakk sebab.... sebab... well.. I'm a food hunter.. what do u expect??! Tapi berpada2 la makan tu... air pilih yg no sugar or order air mineral je.. Makanan pun I'd choose western 'cus the've got more protein food rather than carbs. So... kalau nak get fit.. jgn nk salahkn cafe yg menjual makann2 x sihat.. hangpa la yg kene pandai2 pilih!

kala korang nak tahu.. cik jarijemari ni x gemar sgt pun exercise mula2.. I'm a lazy girl.. I hate exercise.. and I LOVE FOOD (especially the weird one). Masa mula2 nak start tu.. Ya Allah.. mcm nightmare!

First day, aq x jog.. I started a home-exercise. I'd do..
- 50 jumping jack (lompat bintang)
- 20 sec wall sit
- in-place jog for 30min (jog setempat... cm guna trademill tp ni tanpa trademill)
- 7 Kick-Squat
- 10 lay-cycling
- 5 sit up.

Second day, I'd do the same followed by the 3rd day... 4th day.. I did the same type of exercise but I increased the number of times to +5. (eg: 50 Jumping jack to 55 jumping jack and so on).
I didnt start up with jog sebab masa cuti.. aq duk umah and there're lots work to do kat rumah.. nk mengemas.. memasak.. (ni lah die kehidupan tanpa parents around) sob3. That's why I saved the time for home-exercise.  I did that for 3 weeks and bila dh start sem.. aq pun start jog sebab dh duk hostel kannn...

Yang penting semnagat.. semangat kene kuat.. once hilang semangat memang susah nak start balik.. so train yourself.. train your mind to aim for what you've set for your goal! AIM! and BE CONSISTENT!

been doing food hunter lately and there're lots of places to go before my graduation!!!
I've been hunting all kinds of "hipster" cafe.. trying out different meals and different environment.
I feel ALIVE!!!

1. Kotak Kalam (kwn ambo kata.. mksd die kotak pensil)
Apa best kotak kalam nie??! tempat die HIPSTER laa.. and penah masuk rancangan jalan2 cari makan tv3. Harga die... nama pun hipster ann.. Harga pun hipster laa~!! Tapi mmg x rugi wooo... serius sedap~! That time I ordered Swedish Meatballs!! haa... x pyh susah2 nak fly ke Swedish.. Kotak kalam pun hadoooo!! Rasa die .. pergh! "enak berkrim" gituu.. memang rasa daging betul. Niceeee! Drinks... sorry.. kalau drinks ni aq xmo cite.. since I'm on atkins diet.. so confirm air aq Air mineral je.. tp masa ni xleh nk tahan dh temptation aku.. so I ordered Lemonade WITHOUT SUGAR! Kalau yg tak biasa minum tawar mmg pelik ar.. TAPI demi kesihatan dan fitness akuu... Lemonade tanpa gula pun jadilaaa.

Naik gila pikir FYP ni..  I started earlier than everyone else cause my Supervisor holds a grant project and get us involved. It was a great experience but I had to learn the step upside sown unlike everyone else since I've started earlier. Despite of being stressed out and messed up.. I'm very much thankful for having her as my SV. She taught us well and never make us stressed out. Slalu je happy and make jokes out of the blue.

Today, I had to sleep late.. its around 3.30 am now and I've just completed half of my Research proposal correction. While whatssapp-ing with my SV at 3.30am.. We talked about our plans and what need to be done (She's quiet awesome!! mana ad lect. nak berwhatsapp tgh2 malam.. ye dakk??).. Then in the mids of our conversation.. She compliments my work... Saying I'm doing great.. And told me stop doing what ever I'm doing.. go sleep and continue tomorrow..~!

I was like!! WOW! She's acting like my mama! and even got compliments.. I guess I should be sleeping well tonight... Alhamdulillah~

It's just a beginning.. a lot coming ahead.. I have to be ready!!

Ok laa.. semua orang pelik kenapa aku amik Emergency&Trauma as my elective course for my final year! Jawapan die... HOI! aq pun terkejut beruk aq pilih Emergency&Trauma hang tau dakkk!

As you all know, Mun pantang practical kat A&E(Emergency & Trauma).. BUkan pantang sebab happy tapi pantang sebab benci! Memang dari tahun 2 lagi memang planning nak lari jauh2 dar A&E. Tak Nak Tak Nak! Kenapa benci sgt? Come on la... best kowt! TAK BEST! Sebab benda yg paling aku seriau is that their lives depends on YOU! ON YOU! you're going to face many many challenges.. jumpa case yg teruk2.. Imagine a patient coming in with Ruptured backbone, broken leg.. half stomach berkecai (Eiuewwww!!) and YOU need to do something to make sure tht patient stays alive! hang nk pekaq ap aq tanya~!!kalau hang tera nk mampoih aku x kesah la... ni aku nak hafal ubat pun x lepas2 dari tahun 1... Yup! thats why la aku tak suka keje A&E. But the thing is.. Aku suka berhadapan dengan case yg pelik2... rare... pecah otak ke.. aku suka.. tpi handling them.. you need confident and KNOWLEDGE! hang x dak dua tu... mampoih patient tu!

But then.. Its time to choose my elective course... yg open: Emergency, trauma & Disaster Nursing, Diabetic, Geron, Breastfeeding and Renal. Tapi yang pelikkkkkknyaaaa... Aq pilih A&E.. my SV told me that we're going to be posted at BASF petronas Chemical Industry.. HAAH! memang ayat WIN nk mampuih~ memang tak la aku nk tolak Emergency.. Its amazing being posted in an industry.. walaupun x penah lagi experience but it sounds good. Selama ni asyik kat hospital je.. why not trying out something new kannnn??? so thts what I'm thinking and chose emergency! I thought that maybe I can find rare case there... VERY RARE since its a chemical industry.. hmmm...
Am I putting myself into a trap???!! or its a GOOD coincidence?? *sigh.. I hope evrything goes well.. and I hope my choice wouldnt let me down. AMIN!