Today I was a assign as Triage nurse. Whats that??!!
Triage nurse is someone who stays in front of emergency as a front liner to first examined patient and classified them into their priority. less urgent and most urgent.. thts a triage, ^_^

so Today a patient came.. well, looking innocent and humble... its a girl.. in her 20s. she came in complaining of what her problem is in english and trust me, her english is so england.. maybe? I mean to say.. she speak english well and doesnt sound malay at all.. So normally, I'll talk to patient to ease their anxiety.. having a chit chat while examined the patient.

so here it goes,
me: where are you from sweetie?
her: I'm just from kelantan.. I'm Malay
me: lahhhh.. awat x habaq.. kemain ckp english.. x reti BM ka?

LOL.. and she laughed...
so here's the problem most of our people face.. tak kesah la ko belajar luar negara ke.. your parents came from that of high class people ke.... but the fact that you are Malay and dont speak malay made me sad seriously. I used to live oversea and studied there from 3rd grade until high school and Ive seen how malay people over there speak.... Macam lupa daratan... macam depa lupa bahasa ibunda.. semua pakat speaking... even the parents talk with them in english. Come on... you can teach your children in a way that they dont need to totally buang bahasa ibunda.. so sad!!

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well, what its like to change? I'll say.. it will be the biggest challenges you have ever faced.
To change into someone faithful and to be a better person need lots of strength not only from the inner you but also from the people around you.

I've always come across to the thought of being someone better but its hard even harder when you're working. and the environment in which you're working. well... I think I need to try harder.. shouldnt I?

Alhamdulillah.. tanpa sedar.. I've been working as a nurse for 6 months already at KPJ ampang puteri and alhamdulillah again that i've loved my job till the end! the past few months... I've faced lots of life and love issues and almost got me into trouble... suicide maybe? yea.. suicide... I never want to tell the fault in my love issue coz it will end up me "buka aib org" so I better not.  But anyway... I hope for the better life in the upcomingsss.

I didnt expect much but I hope myself to be filled with Iman so I can be strong when facing any challenges and for myself to get closer to Allah. Ive always blame myself for failing my love issue because I realize I wasnt putting Allah as number one and I've always think of my ex all the time. I've left Allah all alone and eventually didnt know how Allah missed me and gave me such challenges to made me realize how I've forgotten Allah all these time. Thank you Allah.

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