I am intended to post this for what happen to my friend lately. To say that she had been single for a month was a great success. . For her. It was hard sebab hidup die memang x pernah single.. got break up and found a new one until lately she told me that she would like to take a break. She's tired already. She feels so fed up being in a relationship. She broke up a month ago sebab laki tu buat mcm2 masaalah.. lepas satu satu..

After broke up.. she insist saying "aq ase aq x kawin la.." I told her.. kalau ko ckp benda ni hari2.. memang x kawin la ko.. I think I had posted earlier about her so called sarcastic and anoyying talk after broke up. But then yesterday, die dtg bilik mun..
She: mun.. dh sebulan aku xde kekasih.. aq ase kosong xde kekasih.
Me: ko ni.. x de kekasih pun resah.. Allah kn ade.. kekasih sehidup semati tahu x..
She: habes tu.. x kawin la aq?
Me: aihh.. ko tgok.. ramai je yg xde kekasih kawin.. xde berboypren gelpren.. kawin jee.. kawin tu jodoh.. x semestinya ad kekasih kawin.. mane tahu takdir Allah.. ad kekasih.. siap bila putus.. ad lg.. bila putus.. ad lagi.. tp x kawin2 sampai ke tua..

Kawan2.. perkahwinan ini ketentuan Allah.. kita x yh nk menyebukkn diri mencari.. just buat tangunggjwb kita sebagai hamba Allah.. yg wajib yg sunnah.. berzikir.. beristighfar.. kalau ikutkn.. byk lg perkara2 yg kita x buat.. apakah sudah cukup akrab relation kita dgn Allah??

Untuk yg dh punya kekasih.. doa selalu supaya Allah melindungi dr kejahatan.. kezaliman.. dan x lupa juga.. zina. Memiliki kekasih tak salah kalau x melanggar syarat2 dlm islam.
Berdua2an. Berpegang2an. Berckp benda2 yang lagha. Berhubung tanpa pengatahuan ibu bapa kita. Kluar mlm. Dan sewaktu dengannya.

Nmpk x?? Islam  ni indahkan?? seboleh2 nak menjaga kita seorang wanita.. dalam islam..wanita ni.. ddiletak TINGGI darjat die.. maruah dia.. bersyukurlah dengan nikmat yg Allah bagi.

Akhir kalam. Jgn fikir tanpa kekasih, hidup kita DONE!! X leh kawin la.. dan sebagainya.. Allah itu kan kekasih kita. Mana tahu.. hubungan terputus kerana Allah lebih syg kt kita.. nk yg lg baek tuk kita.. nk jauhkn dr zina.. mungkin itu slh satu cara Allah turunkn hidayah untuk kita menjadi solehah. Ahli syurga ameen!

The end.

Sometimes.. things are just too difficult to expresss.. what am I suppose to do?
Great things happen.. bad things happen too.. but you cant be the one to choose how things going to turn out.. good or bad.

Loving someone is hard.. missing someone is even harder to handle.. but what if your heart cant stand that anymore?? -__-! Alhamdulillah we muslim were taught to release that to Allah.. we have Allah to lean on.. but at some points.. human beings.. we just cant hold them anymore.

You guys might be wondering.. "weyh.. hang nk ckp apa sbnrnya?".. well.. here it is.. I've had fallen in love with this man.. I knew him long time back since I we were just a kid. But we actually become friend last 3 years. Our moms and dads are friends. He use to be kind, caring and talkative. He use to joke around but things change.. he maybe have his own aim to change himself to be better duniya wal akhirah. So since thn he changed alot.. he never talk, joke around like he use to.. well.. he's just different. Whenever we had a conversation.. he would find fault in me.. whenever I needed help.. he would say.. "siapa kau".. but sometimes he would be just caring like he use too.. but that only last for few minutes. . Later on we would start to argue and fight.

My hearts would beat tremendously but not that I'm nervous but its because I'm so angry.. He would always makes me angry.. and I hate that. I hate myself in a state of anger cause I cant control myself.. sometimes. I use to tell him that I like him.. and I told him to respond.. coz if he cant accept than I'd just let go and be friend like usual. I wouldnt feel embarrassed for being rejected coz Allah knows what's best.. if I were to be rejected that.. he's not my life partner as Allah has planned.
But once I told him what I feel.. he just said, "kita blajar dulu.. dh habes nanti kita fikir benda ni". I knew it coz I also wanted to finish my study first and get occupation if possible but than.. when he said that.. I dont get any answers..  I would just stay still and not saying anything... without an answer.. my heart would be just as fool as its owners. Huh!

Most of my classmates are already taken.. few of them got married another few of them got engaged.. i felted that i'm being challenged. I'm just stuck thinking how lonely I am. People would say.. we are muslim.. we never be alone cuz Allah is always there. But we, human beings are just human beings.. we had this feeling..
To that person.. I know you wouldnt be reading this post but just in case u came across.. I just wanted you to know.. how ego you are.. how stone-head you are.. how much you've made me angry.. how you ignored me and how you looked at me.. I've just fallen for you.. if you are to reject me say so and stop your "chips more" caring text with me. Coz by that you're makin me dilemma and eventually giving me hope to wait. Any man cant attract me like you did.. unless you could give me a clearer answer.

The end.

Semakin hari semakin syg.. semakin hari semakin rindu.. walaupun bertahun2 tak contact.. kalau contact pun sekali dua dlm sbln.. hati ni tetap berpaut pada engkau sorang.. tap islam itu indah.. ad batas dalam pergaulan.. ada batas dalam persahabtan.. ada batas dalam percintaan.

Aku akan sentiasa menunggu.. sentiasa berdoa agar kita di satukan.. lepaskn rindu dalam doa.. lepaskn kata2 cinta dalam doa.. jikalau kami dinjodohkn.. Alhamdulillah. Tpi jikalau kami di pisahkan.. semoga itu jalan yg terbaek. Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Adil dan Maha Mengasihi. mungkin Allah inginkn seseorg yg jauh lebih baek untuk kita.

Apa2 pun. Salam rindu Mr. A.

Hermm.. alhamdulillah. Dulu bagi alasan tak dapat update blog slalu sbb x dapat nk online kt laptop. Skrang ni dah ad blogger android uolllllsssss..!! Hebat x hebat x??!

Ke mun sorang yang baru tahu ni. Ohmai.. sgt ketinggalan zaman. Tapi the only one thing yg x bestnya.. adalah x leh attach gambarSo selama mun posting kat temerloh ni. Bacalah post dr saya yang x bergambar nie.. hoho!

Oowh. Speaking of posting. I kat temerloh uoolls. Doing my practical at hospital sultan haji ahmad shah. Best hospital to work in btw! Saluteeeeee! System die sgt teratur. Patient walaupun ramai.. It doesnt look soo messy as in HTAA kuantan. And the staff nurse, doctors and all health care workors are so kind to us.

Unlike htaa who always come out with the sentence,  "korang ni degree kn?? Tolong laa.. benda simple je kowt. Kalau cmnie baek x yh amek degree.. nama je degree tp x pndi buat keje"
Come on la.. we all student kooowt. Year 1 plak tu at that time.. wat do u expect?? Knowing everything so perfectly? Supposely ajar la.. nk marah.. marah la.. but teach us.. dont just babble around like she's the "all-knowing". Blurghhh..

Herm. Tired of typing sudah.. later I'll story mory my life and my practical life at temerloh!

Wait for meee...